Well, how’s everyone doing? Are we surviving this pandemic together? If you’re anything like me, you’re not doing so hot. I mean, don’t get me wrong. Some days, I feel great and at ease and rested. But most days, I have a massive case of anxiety, I can barely sleep, and I am either forgetting to eat or stress binging on Reese’s white chocolate peanut butter eggs. (White chocolate peanut butter eggs? Who I am?)
A few good things (?) have come out of these days. I’m writing every day. Again, don’t get me wrong… Most of what I’m writing is junk. It’s stream-of-consciousness, let’s get the garbage out and unclog my brain type of writing. But it’s writing nonetheless. I need it desperately. And I’ve been running again! I lost about 10 pounds right away, only to end up binging on white chocolate peanut butter eggs and gain it right back. But I’m happy to be moving again. Moving and writing. I was horribly starved of those things the past several months.
I’m struggling remember what day it was, which wouldn’t be that big of a deal since I’m currently unemployed. But when I totally forgot to show up for a Zoom interview for a job I want so very badly, it worked against me. They were cool about it and we rescheduled, but I still haven’t heard back, so I hope I didn’t destroy my chances. To be fair, they did tell me it would take at least this long. Keep your fingers crossed for me!
I’m also now starting on the second draft of my book (AGH!) in the hopes of sending it off to the agent that requested the full manuscript here before too long. I promise I’ll be writing soon about my literary endeavors because I have learned so much in the past month and I’m excited to share my experiences with anyone who needs it.
And my son loves having me home non-stop. It makes it hard to get anything done but lay in bed snuggling. I’m not complaining. The kids need stability as much as we adults do. So I’m loving this time with the kids. It’s something I’ve never had before.
But what I do miss is normalcy. I cannot wait to have chips and salsa with my girlfriends. I can’t wait to have a self care day, soaking at Mud & Lotus and eating sushi with Kelsey. I can’t wait to go to the pool and playground with my kids. To go on a date with my husband. I need live music and other people and restaurants and coffee shops and downtown for some energy. So yeah. I’m struggling. And it sounds like we’re not even halfway there.
How about you? How do you feel? What you all are doing to get through this pandemic? What are you most looking forward to doing?